Friday, July 22, 2011

I've been thinking...

Yes, I know that can be a dangerous thing for some of us.

Just wanted you to know that I'm still here. I've been thinking about things that have been going on with my life and in my spirit...wanting to talk about some of the things that God has been showing me in these last few months. I've been contemplating the last nine years of my life; trying to make sense of it in the spiritual realm.




I have a tendency to "overthink" sometimes, especially on weighty subjects. And there have been two weighty subjects in my life throughout this time that seemingly contradict themselves. A call to ministry in regard to healing, and then the fact that I was about wiped out with heart disease. It would be easy for me to just feel like they cancel each other out, but God won't let me go there.

I've been thru every emotion under the sun in this last few months, but I haven't given up on getting out of the place I seemingly am stuck in health wise, or the fact that no matter how hard I want to quietly slip away from posting here, God will have none of it.

Playing house at my other blog has given me a distraction. Painting furniture, rearranging things, sewing, having linky parties; God has all approved and basically said, "Go ahead, have some fun, then come back here when I say so."  ...so I'm back...

My husband and I talk alot, he's my best friend, and good thing too. Otherwise living with me might not be such a picnic. God has put something in him that I can only call divine love for me. We've had alot of ups and downs in 38 years of marriage. (Who can be married and not have some ups and downs?) He's a good listener, and always processes what I need to share. I can complain and fuss and whine, and he's always there to pray for me and encourage me. He helps me sort things out and sift thru the junk in my life.

OK, so here's the jest of this post.

I still believe in healing. I have a long history with the Lord on this, so it ain't changin' or going away.
(I know not all of you have this same belief, but God has settled this with me many years ago, so even though I respect your opinion, please don't try to change mine.)
I've done everything I can "do" to show the Lord I mean business. Below are just a few things that God has given me over the many years I've been here.

I've read every book on healing from founding spiritual fathers to current ministries.
I've taken communion every day, as I know that we do this in remembrance of what Jesus has done for us.
I've looked up every scripture on healing and taken it to the Lord in prayer.
I've rebuked the enemy.
I've submitted myself to the Lord.
I've done extensive evaluation led by the Holy Spirit to reveal to me things in my life that I have needed to turn over and let God deal with.
I've forgiven every one who ever did something against me, and I've asked forgiveness of those that I may have harmed.

the list goes on...

you get my drift?

I have faith in God for His will to be done.
I'm believing and standing on the promises.
I'm there.

So when I went back to the Lord this last week about ,
"Is there something I haven't done?,
 Is there something you want from me?
Why is this still continuing?"

I received an answer...
"wait, and call it done."

All the good things that teach us and grow us and reveal God's Word to us can become "works" if we aren't careful.

God knows our heart.
He knows our faith.
He wants us to trust Him.
Then we wait...

love in Jesus,

14 comments:

  1. So true....he is able....he hears us when we ask......I don't understand WHY so many times he doesn't answer right away...but,still I continue to trust that he hears and answers according to his will and his timing. Waiting on God isn't very easy at times but,he grants grace and mercy in the waiting.
    Blessings

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  2. We can't do anything. Jesus has already done it all. All our works are as filthy rags. Our hope is in Him to work all things out. Each day is a gift, we take the good with the bad, and deal with it with Him by our side. He is our strength when we are weak. We do not know what He has in store for us as we live this journey. He has all the answers, but we might not find out until we see Him face to face.

    May you feel the love and peace of God flowing through and surrounding you each and every day.

    FlowerLady (one of the least in His kingdom)

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  3. Beautiful post, Debra. I know I am supposed to doing something, too. I'm so glad I saw this post, I needed this today.

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  4. I have VERY similar situation as you have right now. It has been eight years... and I always wonder what's going on. But the Lord has been gracious. The last response He has for me re. this subject was "It's just not the time yet". I am speechless but know that He knows my mind and my struggle too well, and He knows what He is doing! I, on the other hand, feel relieved knowing I can do nothing but only to wait for His time.
    Just want to encourage you! Hang in there. He loves you VERY MUCH. =)
    Love in Christ.

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  5. Debra,
    I am a simple woman of simple faith. Reading this, a single thought kept going thru my mind. We lost one of our dearest friends in the world a few years back. He had inherited a heart problem from the male side of his family. No man in his family lived past the age of 42, yet Robert did. He had a calling card that he handed out that read "Do your best, Pray its blessed, Forget the rest". (I'm looking at mine as I type this.) Simple words he lived by. Robert left us at 63. I guess what I'm trying to say is it all depends on the definition of healing. Robert out lived all his predecessors by 20 years...and the doctors couldn't understand how. His heart was ravaged, he underwent countless surgeries to correct it until it got to the point there weren't any options left...yet it kept beating until the time God chose to call him home. Quietly, just after he had told his wife he loved her and good night...he was gone. No pain...with just a small sigh, he closed his eyes and went home.
    God had healed him for those twenty years when modern medicine couldn't. The doctors never considered him healed, but for those of us who were blessed with those years and his joy in living them to the fullest, do.
    I'm so sorry this was so long, but you know sometimes I'm just the typist.
    Deb

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  6. I love this blog post...I too believe in the power of healing from above. I also know that it all happens in his time..I so understand about "works" sometimes we dont even realize that is what we are doing.

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  7. Debra,
    Funny as we read through Scripture, Paul had this "thorn in his flesh" (some say it was poor eyesight) that tormented him. Timothy suffered with stomach ailments. At one time Mary Magdalene had numerous demons. Thomas was a 'doubter'.
    Yet to all of them Jesus gave the power to heal all illnesses.
    I had thyroid disease and was on medication. I was prayed for and prayed for. Finally I decided to hold to my faith and keep taking my meds and (as you said) wait. After all, they who wait upon the Lord SHALL renew their strength...
    After 3 yrs. I was told by the Dr. to stop my meds. My thyroid was healed. I have a letter from the Dr. stating that fact.
    Like you, I can't wait for the day that we'll all rise to be the healing hands and feet of Christ to this earth. But for now... faith doesn't fail just because we face illness. It's easy to believe when we've received. Faith is strengthened through our trials as we continue to cling to God and His Word and refuse to align our thoughts and words with the enemy. :)
    Blessings and hugs,
    Deb

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  8. I've been through a similar situation with me, my husband and everyone else in my family who has ever had a need form healing no matter how small or large. Waiting is hard. We are taught activity brings action. It can also bring disappointment and emptiness if not done according to His will.
    Creating brings us closer to Him. Pulls down the Spirit and creates an opening i the heavenlies.
    Barbie Breathitt, a lady who does and teaches dream interpretation also talks about angels and healing. I'm always comforted and stirred up when I read or watch something from her. You're in my prayers.

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  9. Hi Debra,

    I really enjoy your posts on this blog too. I find what you write so meaningful and also very challenging. Thank you.

    Sarahxx

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  10. Just to share with you folks, i have a new post today on Amish Stories from the Terre Hill days even that was just held in Lancaster Pennsylvania. It was a very hot day but i was able to get i think a few good images from this event. The town is populated with a mix of Amish and old order Mennonites which only adds to its charm. They even have what has become famous in Terre Hill their "outhouse race". The town sits on a hill so it overlooks Lancaster farmland in almost all directions. This is one of my favorite towns to visit because its free from commercialism, so if you are looking for a really all American kind of town with the added bonus of seeing its Amish and Mennonite residents at work and play, then this town is for you. Thanks folks. Richard from Amish Stories.

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  11. Debra,
    I also believe in Divine healing, whether here on earth, or as we meet Christ face to face.

    God's ways are not our ways. I pray that God will choose to heal you, and that you will give Him all the glory as a witness to Him!

    Blessings to you...
    teresa

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  12. Dear Debra, How amazing, I came by to say thank you as I received my lovely giveaway, and here is this post which is exactly what I've been going through. I too am dealing with health issues, a one in a million disease called pemphigus, and I have been feeling tired and so unlike myself. I have been asking God what do I need to do to be healed, because I am standing on His promises, and I believe He can and will heal. But yes, He told me to wait also, that this was a gift and blessing. That He chooses to show Himself to me in this way, that he comes in many guises, and that I need to open my eyes and see. Let us pray for each other as we go through this journey with the Lord. Patsy from
    HeARTworks

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  13. Hi Debra,

    It has been a long while since I stopped by and something told me to stop by today and what a wonderful post and so timely for me. I understand in such a different way, but still understand the "wait" and "heal" part. It seems like as soon as I have "healed" in one area, my life takes a turn, JUST LIKE THAT, and more pain in one form or another is just heaped up in piles into my life - for years now, this has been a pattern.

    And I can't count the times I have teared up to God and asked Him how much more can I take and haven't I been a "good" and faithful servant? And my answer? It is so simple, not very encouraging, but true...I get: It is a fallen world. Frankly, I always thought that answer sucked. But to be really honest, that is the small voice I always got when I pleaded.

    But just yesterday, just yesterday, I read this passage that brought me great comfort and I think it was no accident that I happened to turn to it in my bible: Deuteronomy 31:8 "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged."

    I think God knew in my heart that I needed a better answer to my pleas...and so He gave me one yesterday. And He gave me one again today by just having me, on the spur of the moment, turn to your thoughtful post after so many months of having not visited.

    Thank you for taking time out of your really busy day to share with us. Didn't mean to go on, but I am always amazed at how God works.

    All my best
    Elizabeth

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  14. "Be still and know.."easy to quote difficult to do. God's Word does not lie. His promises are true, but in His time and not ours! We have been walking a similar path for ten years. My Husband suffers from a chronic health issue. He suffers extreme pain on a daily basis. We pastor a church that believes with us for his healing. When he was not healed right away half of our congregation left. God has blessed us and our church as we press closer to Him. Our relationship with Him and each other has grown sweeter. God is truly a Faithful Father. We will put your name on our prayer list. Blessings, Audrey

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